Oh my life!!!

Hey all! Its been so long since I have talked t you!!
Ok so it is the end of October and I still can't belive that I am not in high school any more. Everyday is full of its suprises some good and some bad and some jstu a fact of lie. I star working 40 hours a week on Tuesday, I am really uber duper not looking forward to that but I know that its a fact of life.
Ok so I am going to be honest.. This past month has been brutal, I dodn't know that real life sucked this much. I was goiing to apply to Kaleo and was so stoked but things got complicated with the application and now I just don't know what I want to do. As I say so many time.. My life is gong show. Guys I feel so empty and life my life dosnt really havea direction or meaning. Things with God are shaky, I have relized that I don't have much of a social life and not having my life planned out for me is really sucking alot. BLAAHHHHH I dont know what to do, I am not the same person that you guys new last June, I am stressing about EVERYTHING and my brain is so full. Thank you for reading this rant. I love you guys tons and miss you so freking much!!
DWEEB